OK, so it's not going to be easy, we all know that...

But you've got to start somewhere right?
So here it is.... the official blog to help me motivate MYSELF.
If I have to weigh and measure myself and write it down then hopefully that will make me more accountable for what goes in my mouth and how good I am at getting my arse to the gym. I have been so good the last 3 weeks and have only missed 3 days at the gym. Two of those days I did some major walks as the gym is closed on Sundays so effectively I have worked hard every day lol.
I have had hardly any wine which I think is my biggest downfall - a glass or 3 most nights.
I am quite tall - about 5 foot 10 - which helps me carry (hide?) my weight a bit easier. I am at least 20kgs overweight and have a body fat percentage of 40%!!!
Holy f*ck! how could I let this happen?? I am still a size 14-16 (OK, more a 16) but can squeeze into a 14 in some clothes/brands.
Most of my weight is carried around my tummy/hips/chest/face. I have quite strong legs and arms which are fairly toned and shock horror I am actually reasonably fit too.....
So, join me on my quest to get into a size 10 and lose my baby belly and feel good about myself again. Because, to be honest I have avoided going anywhere or seeing anyone for quite some time because I am ashamed of how I look - I can see a lot of people thinking "Oh my god, she has stacked it on!!". People have said to me "but you used to be so skinny!!" and now I feel embarrassed. I even passed up an evening at the Hilton last week because I knew I would feel shit in what I was wearing. I know this has really seriously knocked my self-esteem.
I'm NOT having anymore kids so there is no further excuse, is there?? When my hysband tells me I am beautiful or sexy I think "yeah, well you have to say that but I bet you wish I still looked like I did before kids!!" Poor bugger, he can't win lol. :-)

Thanks for the inspiration 9291..