I have been a good girl the last 2 days.... trying very hard not to snack between meals and have been eating well. Breakfast yesterday I made scrambled eggs and wholegrain toast and I had a ham sandwich for lunch. Dinner was chicken and salad and I only had a tiny amount of mashed potatoes ;-)
Had a new programme done for me at the gym yesterday and the trainer was impressed with my strength and speed/reps that I had been doing previously on some of the cardio mahcines - of course she has now made it lots harder lol. Good though, have just got back from doing the programme myself in full today and struggled a bit haha but oh well, no pain no gain.
Have managed to drink 1.5litres of water and only had one coffee. I had tomato on toast and a bowl of cornflakes with banana before the gym. I find myself hungry for breakfast in the mornings which is unusual as I don't normally eat much for breakie, maybe that is why I snack through the day. I think I need the energy from breakfast to get through a workout at the gym as I have noticed that if I don't eat I hit the wall a lot sooner.
Really enjoying it and noticing my tummy firming up a bit. The trainer reckons my cup size (bra) will decrease with some of the weight training i am doing which makes me happy.... I always used to be average sized in the bust area but after 3 kids and losing/gaining weight they are a a D cup now. I would be happy to go back down to a C cup for sure - have never felt very comfortable having 'larger' boobs. I am sure my husband will disagree with me in this... hmmmm. The trainer actually looked a bit stunned when i said I would be happy reducing a cup size - I guess she doesn't hear that a lot lol...
My son's school is having a sausage sizzle and bake sale tomorrow for election day as they run a polling booth in the hall and I guess it is a good fundraiser flogging of cakes and sausages to the voters. I am now off to make something to contribute to the bake sale and get it up to school before 3pm. Now that challenge is not to eat any of it before it gets there!!!
Well done to all of you - I have been reading your blogs too and will comment when I get the chance later on tonight. Have a great day everyone :-)
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
A day of reflection.....
Today 5 years ago my little nephew was born.... he should have been full of excitement and heading off to school today with a brand new backpack and lunchbox. But instead - due to medical misadventure during his delivery - he passed away after being on life support for 3 days.
I cannot believe that 5 years have gone by and yet I still feel so sad about it. Such a tragic loss and makes me still very,very angry.
Not a drop in the ocean are my feelings compared to those of this little man's parents but it still astounds me how lives can be irrevocably changed in a matter of hours.
I had recently turned 30 when he died and had been wanting to gave up smoking for quite some time. I was very slim back then (around 63kgs) having lost about 24 kgs I had put on while preg with my oldest son.
I lost that weight mainly due to being very, very busy with my business and substituting food for cigarettes and coffee, I used to run around the netball court back then too.....
I have crap willpower (no? really!! haha) and needed a good reason to give up smoking so I knew that if I swore on my little nephew's name that I wouldn't have another cigarette then I would remain true to it.
I never have had another cigarette - every time I felt like one I would think of him and wish we could have him back - maybe that is why I am 20 kgs overweight lol.
I remain convinced that smoking is the best dieting tool ever!! and before I get slammed for it, I never said the healthiest, smartest or recommended option lol - just that it certainly worked for me.
We usually let off helium balloons today to say g'day to our wee man and of course sky rockets etc. So bloody sad and so wrong.
And then to cap off an already sad day, my Dad has just emailed me a copy of a letter he has sent to my Aunt in Athens who has breast cancer and is in hospital having more chemotherapy. She has already had a double mastectomy, chemo and radiotherapy a few years back so this is a shock to hear that her cancer has returned. I wonder what her prognosis will now be...
We thought she had it beat.
Very hard as she is isolated in Greece and although she has a great network of friends her husband (a Greek) passed away many years ago and she is not close to her only son. I wish we weren't so far away :-(
On a brighter note, had a great workout at the gym this morning... can definately feel it this afternoon so it must be working right?? Espaecially that little bit of skin between the top of my boob and my armpit - you know where your bra strap comes down?? yeah - that hurts. Which is good!!
I cannot believe that 5 years have gone by and yet I still feel so sad about it. Such a tragic loss and makes me still very,very angry.
Not a drop in the ocean are my feelings compared to those of this little man's parents but it still astounds me how lives can be irrevocably changed in a matter of hours.
I had recently turned 30 when he died and had been wanting to gave up smoking for quite some time. I was very slim back then (around 63kgs) having lost about 24 kgs I had put on while preg with my oldest son.
I lost that weight mainly due to being very, very busy with my business and substituting food for cigarettes and coffee, I used to run around the netball court back then too.....
I have crap willpower (no? really!! haha) and needed a good reason to give up smoking so I knew that if I swore on my little nephew's name that I wouldn't have another cigarette then I would remain true to it.
I never have had another cigarette - every time I felt like one I would think of him and wish we could have him back - maybe that is why I am 20 kgs overweight lol.
I remain convinced that smoking is the best dieting tool ever!! and before I get slammed for it, I never said the healthiest, smartest or recommended option lol - just that it certainly worked for me.
We usually let off helium balloons today to say g'day to our wee man and of course sky rockets etc. So bloody sad and so wrong.
And then to cap off an already sad day, my Dad has just emailed me a copy of a letter he has sent to my Aunt in Athens who has breast cancer and is in hospital having more chemotherapy. She has already had a double mastectomy, chemo and radiotherapy a few years back so this is a shock to hear that her cancer has returned. I wonder what her prognosis will now be...
We thought she had it beat.
Very hard as she is isolated in Greece and although she has a great network of friends her husband (a Greek) passed away many years ago and she is not close to her only son. I wish we weren't so far away :-(
On a brighter note, had a great workout at the gym this morning... can definately feel it this afternoon so it must be working right?? Espaecially that little bit of skin between the top of my boob and my armpit - you know where your bra strap comes down?? yeah - that hurts. Which is good!!
Monday, November 3, 2008
OK... not too bad so far
Pretty good day today actually, enjoyed the gym - 10 mins rowing machine, 15 mins cross trainer and was going to do some work on the bikes but all 3 were busy so I decided to leave that one until tomorrow. Spent the rest of the hour doing some ab work and a few weights. Had a good chat with one of the trainers and got some tips for getting rid of a few 'problem areas'. I have an assessment on Thurs morning.
I wish I had the confidence to do some group exercise at the gym - the classes like bodypump and bodystep look so much fun and I love the music - really makes you want to work a bit harder - I am on the hunt on TM for an ipod now lol.
I think I am too unco for classes, but really love the gym. Maybe in a month or two I might feel different and will give it a go. Why do I think everyone will be watching me or laughing at me? there are some waaaaaay bigger women (and men) there than me. Grrrrr I need to get over it!!
I had another bowl of cereal for lunch lol with banana - could not be bothered making a sandwich or wrap so had that and a bottle of water and a coffee. This afternoon I had a mini box of raisins and snacked at some carrots while I was doing the veg for dinner.
We had a beef stirfry with some noodles and tons of salad. Was really nice, no sauces and no dressing but I had some kiwifruit and orange slices after it. I think my portion size was too big again but MY plate was mostly salad so I guess that's not too bad??
I have just had another coffee but there won't be anything else to eat or drink until breakfast.
Soooo, all in all a pretty good day.
Bring on tomorrow!
I wish I had the confidence to do some group exercise at the gym - the classes like bodypump and bodystep look so much fun and I love the music - really makes you want to work a bit harder - I am on the hunt on TM for an ipod now lol.
I think I am too unco for classes, but really love the gym. Maybe in a month or two I might feel different and will give it a go. Why do I think everyone will be watching me or laughing at me? there are some waaaaaay bigger women (and men) there than me. Grrrrr I need to get over it!!
I had another bowl of cereal for lunch lol with banana - could not be bothered making a sandwich or wrap so had that and a bottle of water and a coffee. This afternoon I had a mini box of raisins and snacked at some carrots while I was doing the veg for dinner.
We had a beef stirfry with some noodles and tons of salad. Was really nice, no sauces and no dressing but I had some kiwifruit and orange slices after it. I think my portion size was too big again but MY plate was mostly salad so I guess that's not too bad??
I have just had another coffee but there won't be anything else to eat or drink until breakfast.
Soooo, all in all a pretty good day.
Bring on tomorrow!
OK, so breakfast is over with and I am about to get ready to go to the gym. Breakfast this morning was some cereal with banana, 2 slices of wheat toast with tomato and 2 cups of coffee. I also made choc chip muffins this morning for my son's shared lunch at school.
I only *tested* the batter 3 times lol. My aim today is to drink as much water as possible - the donwside is having to go to the loo every 5 minutes!!
I only *tested* the batter 3 times lol. My aim today is to drink as much water as possible - the donwside is having to go to the loo every 5 minutes!!
Sunday, November 2, 2008
OK, so it's not going to be easy, we all know that...
But you've got to start somewhere right?
So here it is.... the official blog to help me motivate MYSELF.
If I have to weigh and measure myself and write it down then hopefully that will make me more accountable for what goes in my mouth and how good I am at getting my arse to the gym. I have been so good the last 3 weeks and have only missed 3 days at the gym. Two of those days I did some major walks as the gym is closed on Sundays so effectively I have worked hard every day lol.
I have had hardly any wine which I think is my biggest downfall - a glass or 3 most nights.
I am quite tall - about 5 foot 10 - which helps me carry (hide?) my weight a bit easier. I am at least 20kgs overweight and have a body fat percentage of 40%!!!
Holy f*ck! how could I let this happen?? I am still a size 14-16 (OK, more a 16) but can squeeze into a 14 in some clothes/brands.
Most of my weight is carried around my tummy/hips/chest/face. I have quite strong legs and arms which are fairly toned and shock horror I am actually reasonably fit too.....
So, join me on my quest to get into a size 10 and lose my baby belly and feel good about myself again. Because, to be honest I have avoided going anywhere or seeing anyone for quite some time because I am ashamed of how I look - I can see a lot of people thinking "Oh my god, she has stacked it on!!". People have said to me "but you used to be so skinny!!" and now I feel embarrassed. I even passed up an evening at the Hilton last week because I knew I would feel shit in what I was wearing. I know this has really seriously knocked my self-esteem.
I'm NOT having anymore kids so there is no further excuse, is there?? When my hysband tells me I am beautiful or sexy I think "yeah, well you have to say that but I bet you wish I still looked like I did before kids!!" Poor bugger, he can't win lol. :-)
Thanks for the inspiration 9291..
So here it is.... the official blog to help me motivate MYSELF.
If I have to weigh and measure myself and write it down then hopefully that will make me more accountable for what goes in my mouth and how good I am at getting my arse to the gym. I have been so good the last 3 weeks and have only missed 3 days at the gym. Two of those days I did some major walks as the gym is closed on Sundays so effectively I have worked hard every day lol.
I have had hardly any wine which I think is my biggest downfall - a glass or 3 most nights.
I am quite tall - about 5 foot 10 - which helps me carry (hide?) my weight a bit easier. I am at least 20kgs overweight and have a body fat percentage of 40%!!!
Holy f*ck! how could I let this happen?? I am still a size 14-16 (OK, more a 16) but can squeeze into a 14 in some clothes/brands.
Most of my weight is carried around my tummy/hips/chest/face. I have quite strong legs and arms which are fairly toned and shock horror I am actually reasonably fit too.....
So, join me on my quest to get into a size 10 and lose my baby belly and feel good about myself again. Because, to be honest I have avoided going anywhere or seeing anyone for quite some time because I am ashamed of how I look - I can see a lot of people thinking "Oh my god, she has stacked it on!!". People have said to me "but you used to be so skinny!!" and now I feel embarrassed. I even passed up an evening at the Hilton last week because I knew I would feel shit in what I was wearing. I know this has really seriously knocked my self-esteem.
I'm NOT having anymore kids so there is no further excuse, is there?? When my hysband tells me I am beautiful or sexy I think "yeah, well you have to say that but I bet you wish I still looked like I did before kids!!" Poor bugger, he can't win lol. :-)
Thanks for the inspiration 9291..
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